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There's no excuse. No excuse anymore for me to worry about anything.
I feel as though there's a weight lifted off my shoulders, and now i don't have to stress the what if so-so ran my bill up.

I'm feeling:

relieved

Things have changed for me, and that's perfect.  Perfect.  I needed this kind of semi-major change.  It's not a new car, but i'm finally able to fix mine to TIP TOP shape.  And get my credit back in line. =)

I'm lucky, and I'm grateful for it.  I think I will in fact go to the concert in memphis.  By that time i'll be able to find someone else to go with me.  Thing is... it's on a wednesday.  But it's only like 4 hours away... so it's not that bad.

funny how the simplest things can inspire you, especially from the most unexpected sources.
i finally went and got an oil change today, apparently my car loves me so now.  =)

I'm off work today, so i'm going to try and clean my room in its entirety, and rearrange stuff.  I've got too much furnature in my room, and not enough space to live, and work. heh.

I'm thinking about buying a desk chair, and a small work desk, just big enough for a notebook and my laptop computer.

I've decided i'm going to keep the guitar picks, maybe someday someone can teach meh. =)
And the hoodie... i'm going to keep that one too.  it says (give love, then take it away) and has a red heart patch stitched on the inside of the left side of the zipper.  it reads... always. too bad it's white, but all the better to not wear it all the time and get it all ripped, and such.

it's my second clan hoodie i've bought.  too bad i lost the jack hoodie.

it sounds like freezing rain outside, i thought maybe something was crackling, but then i stopped typing and looked outside.
heh.

anyways,
<3 you.

hehe.  whether i'm overweight, average, skinny, or any weight... there is always going to be names for every one of every size.
rollie pollie...
anerexic...
fat...
slutty...
druggie...
etc.
everyone seems to adopt and impliment a new name for everyone based on their opinions of how other people look.
you can't please everyone all the time.
even "positive" names like...
hot...
sexy...
foxy...
yummy...
can be offensive, especially if meant or said in a degrading or ignorant way.

Please remember that guise... it's not nice to swear, and call people ignorant names.  That's just immature.
 

If i sketch any in the near future, i'll post. =)
Ta ta for now. Dah-lings.

I learned what Clamato was, and what it is used for.  Now for the sharing of the knowledge...
Clamato is a tomato cocktail, that is mixed with beer.  That way the beer doesn't dehydrate you.  This guy in the army who was stationed in the desert ages ago (he says he was my age at the time) told me that him and his buddies used to mix beer and Clamato back in the california desert to stay hydrated and have a good time.  How awesome is that?  Even when he totally didn't have to tell me, he was so nice about it and started to retell his experience in the army and was probably delighted that he could tell (anybody) all about when he was in the army.  I just smiled, and listened.  It was really interesting.

Picked up a bunch of groceries and only spent about 57 bucks.  Definately a good thing.  I knew it would go over 55 but under 60.
Darlene told me about his Blue Plate Mayo, and said it was awesome.  If i don't like it i'ma tell her... "hey woman, i tried that mayo and it just doesn't do it for me."  hahha. "i think i'll stick with my tangy-zip."

I just heard a "stomp out bullying" commercial with Jo-jo (the singer).  It was funnah.

Ooooh.  I also counceled my brother, and offered advice for his issues.  He has yet to clean, but i think i helped his confidence a bit.
Cool Beans.

maybe sm1 will wrry bout me then thnk i got in a wreck or smthn.  i kno theyd be at my funeral.

11/23
Just got in my car, and turned on the radio, looked down at phone (11:11).
No wish.  (i felt like i didn't deserve a wish/couldn't think of anything worth wishing for).

because you have from that moment till 11:12 which could be anywhere from a second or two, or fifty something seconds to instantaniously wish for something... heh.
we'll see tomorrow.  I'm off tomorrow night. =)

I love this song more than you can imagine.
I got a really sweet deal on my TG cd Saturday at Hastings.
It's my 4th favorite cd ever.  Fo reel.

For some people, I seem distant and aloof.  I understand how I may seem that way.
I have the most curious mind you'd ever meet/encounter... which is basically why I want to know everything about... well... most everything.

I told CL about me not being "as qualified" as BB, therefore not becoming HS.  Yeahhh....
"Describe a time when you went out of your way to help someone."
I can't answer those types of questions... I can't pinpoint when a customer gave me trouble, the situation, and what I did to resolve it...
I'm not the type of person to dwell on that stuff, if it happens... i deal with it and go on.
"Describe a time when you had a deadline to meet, and had to rush things along.  What suffered as a result?"

I like to keep things to myself, and I pride myself on the fact that a lot of people don't know me that well.  Like I wouldn't tell someone that there is a guy that comes in wm all the time, he reminds me so much of my SD.  (My SD passed before my hs graduation).  It makes my day to be his cashier, and get that smile, and Thank You.
You really don't know what you have till you lose it, or leave it.

I've had the best week in a while. =)  It will only be better when I get my headphone adapter!
I won Colton's christmas pressie, lost sarah's christmas pressie, but i'll think of something else for her.
Anyways, I'm going to blink around... and then prolly fall asleep.  <33

Although I considered making this a private entry, it really doesn't matter, as no one reads my lj.
Which, I'm perfectly fine with that.

Today, I managed a whole 3.5 hours of sleep before work.  Miraciously though, I wasn't tired at all... I think it was the coldness outside that really woke me up.  I worked... went to break... then worked the rest of my shift.  It was warm outside! So I didn't notice till i got to my car that i left my hoodie in the break room, and vowed to go back later to retrieve it (since of course, I'm off work tomorrow).
As you've might of guessed... I definately didn't make it back there tonight.

Anyways, after I got off work I swung by sonic (since of course it was Happy Hour), and then headed home.  I was out like the lightbulb on my cash register (haha) in a matter of minutes.
Completely forgot to call UEI, and therefore will have to do it in the morning... ugh.
Woke up, watched jeff dunham's christmas special (hilarious!), then plopped down on my bed updating my livejournal, and actually going to MS and FB.
I'm hungry again... and i'm off to find something to cook.  <3's.

What a day!  I know this has become more of an actual daily habit for me... posting entries on here.  So in that sense, it only makes sense that i would continue this for as long as i remember to.

Today I awoke around 7ish... my mom had to go drop off her blazer to get this "sound" she keeps hearing (which is actually the second attempt to fix this series of "sounds" this week) fixed/looked at. The guy decided that the sound was coming from the Catalyac Converter (something to do with the exhaust), and he could either replace the "CC" or "straight-pipe it".  He ended up "straight-pipe"-ing it and called mom around 2 and told her that she can go pick it up anytime, and then come back next week and pay him. She went back to sleep and so did i, and i awoke around 5ish... And long story short... picked up her blazer, swung by sw, then wm, and headed home to argue with mom and my brother.

that's my story so far today.  The only thing i plan on doing tonight besides finding stuff to read on here... is hooking the ps2 up in my room, and maybe doing some laundry.

my life's not THAT interesting, but whatev.
melt your headaches, call it home.

I should be staying off the internet, as i told myself (and my status's on facebook and myspace).  But I do not have a library, nor do i live in a mansion.  Oh i wish!  I wish i had a "book" that i could open the covers, and read the pages, and then press a little button on the bottom to go to the next set of pages. so i would never have to turn a page.  it would make a great bookmark, and a setting as to where you left off reading.  Any book you wanted, instantly. doesn't matter about the number of pages.  would be light, and could possibly be expanded with textbooks, chapters, and indexes.

I will keep dreaming, and keep thinking about these ideas.  BECAUSE "An idea is only relivant if it is thought upon."

As for work, i've honestly NEVER been happier!  I missed my job so much.  I actually think I wouldn't accept a "hs" job, because i'd never be on a register... interacting, talking, and having random conversations about yummy refridgerated pickles!  I would secondary, but that's it. (besides, they run their asses off)

I feel like i never left.  Of course my back needs to get used to it again, but otherwise i'm as chipper as a Ripe Tomato.

I need to get some new pants.  And those registers need to stop biting holes in my shirts!
I need to get new shirts, and ribbed tanks as well.  My brother ruins a lot of my clothes.

The past few days i've gotten up at 5ish am... Well tonight, i didn't get home till nearly 10pm.  Made dinner.  Yummy spaghetti and potato toast.  Believe me... it was SO good.
I wish i could cook for more than just me (and the family).  I think that's what i'm going to do for the thanksgiving potluck or christmas potluck at work!

There's two three things that i'm going to be saving up for...  A new computer (desktop). Nikon CoolPix S60.  Folie A Deux preorder.  (in priority of 2, 3, and 1).

I'm so tired!  For serious!  Nighties!

I'm feeling:

tired

since last time i posted... a lot has happened, so let's just revert to june, k?

as far as work goes. i feel like this little stint has just made me revert back to june with a bit of insight!

I was missed, appreciated, and i feel like it was worth this whole leaving then coming back. I've never felt so welcomed, and warmed as i did yesterday. everyone loved hearing that i was coming back, i may be a "return" but i think it was worth it to feel appreciated. that motivates a lot of things that i do now a days. even if i have to "start over again." At least benefits, and discount card wise. I felt cheated that i didn't get THIS first day experience in Jonesboro!

<33 Trish.